Since Hunter was born, I’d have to say, this has been the craziest, most challenging, busiest, most tiring time of my entire life. I’ve hit some lows and hard times before, but those times, I never had to worry about two other little people and I had the opportunity to sleep! Colic lasted for 3 months…3 months longer than it should have ever existed (I feel for you mamas that have done it longer or at all). Winter was so long this year that our blues were lulled into a grey state. It was hard for me not to get depressed. Sickness did not want to leave! Sleep is still not something us adults do around here yet……
BUT we are coming out of the fog and moving passed all of that. The hard part of colic is over. Spring is here! We have runny noses but no serious colds this week (uh-mazing sauce). Sleep is overrated (ok, it’s not, but it sounded more positive!). And my attitude, I’m still working on that.
I know sleep deprivation can heighten every issue and make mountains out of mole hills, but I also know that everything I experienced was real and valid. The problem was with how I chose to go through it. I literally was trying to just get by with existing and not “living” each and every moment with purpose. And regardless if you’re border-line depressed or not, we all can get caught up with going through the motions and not breathing each breath intentionally. Once purpose and intention is taken out of our life, even day-to-day, mundane stuff, what’s the point?
Seek the kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and He will give you everything you need. ~ Matthew 6:33
There is not one thing in my [or your] life that God does not care about. My simple ideas/plans to do with the boys, meal planning, losing weight, quick instagram/blog posts, heaps of laundry, or “sarah time”, He sees it. All. And will “give us all we need” if we purpose and live our lives to know what He is cooking up and continually desiring to be a part of it. I love the way The Message puts it:
If God gives attention to the appearance of wildflowers–most of which are never seen–don’t you think he’ll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I’m trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God’s giving. People who don’t know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both how he works. Steep you life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don’t worry about missing out. You’ll find all your everyday human concerns will be met. ~ Matthew 6:30-33
Steeping my life in His reality, His initiatives, His provisions … the greatest direction (and picture) I have to meet my needs, to get through seasons like this.
Because he bends down to listen, I will pray [seek & worship] as long as I have breath. ~ Psalm 116:2
pic pix: summer blooms, Jul.2013, home
*my added emphasis and parenthesis to verses