We’ve been getting our house ready to sell this week(!) as there is a possibility of purchasing a property out of town. Even as I typed that last sentence, I was totally pinching myself! It’s been a dream of ours to live outside the city and live a bit simpler of a life. Waking up and going to bed in a wide open space, looking west to see a beautiful mountain view, having room to house our projects of sorts, owning a space to get our hands into the dirt and just create … and the crazy thing is, this dream could possibly be coming true! There are still a LOT of hoops to get through before this becomes a reality, but this is closest we have gotten!!
That said, we’ve been trying to get our current house in shape for pictures/listing/showings and it’s been a crammed week with the cycle of: purge, clean, rearrange, repeat. Mounds of giveaway piles, honey do lists done, and multiple garbage bags later, the photographer came the other day to take pictures. I’m not sure if you are like us, but as much as we love a spotless, clean home we have chosen to still “live” in it. Therefore, it is not always as pristine as a home magazine cover. So, my plan, when the photographer came, was to have a laundry basket in hand and to put certain things away as they went through each room. Unfortunately, it didn’t work right off the bat because 1. I wasn’t there to answer the door and start following them around and 2. they worked so darn FAST! By the time I realized they were nearly done our upstairs bedrooms, was also when I realized all the imperfections they had photographed. Imperfections: not perfectly crisp bed linens, cords from the bedside lamps showing, Brita water jug, cupboard open, laundry still in washing machine, etc., etc.
Again, I like to “live” in my house, so typically these things wouldn’t bother me. But the fact that I had only spent the past four days cleaning my house for these pictures and here were these tiny “put away” items included in the pictures, I nearly came unglued. It’s not perfect. After sighing way too much and getting over the heat of my initial over-reaction I asked myself, what is perfect?
perfect: adj. having all the required or desired elements, qualities, or characteristics; as good as it is possible to be
Zooming out of the current circumstance, my life meets all the requirements of what perfect is – for me. It is more than wonderful – God has blessed me with a beautiful, healthy family and we have more than our needs being met. And then, the very thing we are getting ready for – the opportunity to live out our ‘perfect’ dream – I immediately blow things out of proportion because some pictures are going to show our life’s small-scaled imperfections. Sure, we’re allowed to get frustrated here and there, but I don’t ever want those moments to be what shapes me. I want all the perfections in life to be what defines me.
The way my five month old giggles his heart out when being tickled. Perfect. The notes and pictures I get from my first born. Perfect. The sweet, wet kisses my two year old wakes me up with. Perfect. The way my husband lights up when he is excited for his favorite dinner. Perfect.
Too often, I close in on perspective and fail to see the perfections around me and give my energy to what isn’t. There is a Creator who IS perfect and He gives a love that IS perfect … and that is where my perspective and way needs to come from. My perspective needs to not be so pint-sized … but BIG and all encompassing, like my God.
“But whoever keeps His word, truly the love of God is perfected in him. By this we know we are in Him …” 1 John 2:5
pic pix: reflective waters, Springy Point, ID, Aug.2014