Learning balance. Learning to love. Learning to grow. Learning to change …
As much as I truly love to learn, in the mix sometimes, it can feel like learning is a chore. It’s almost like I enjoy the aftermath of attaining something – when I can say I know it! To be the one who doesn’t know how/what the answer is is humbling and frustrating. And at times when I am going through a growth spurt … the last thing I want to do is raise my hand to ask for help.
Right now for me (again), my current-day ‘struggle’ is learning how to manage my time in the absolute best way possible. My boys will only be this age once, our family will soon be growing to add a third(!), and this season will one day be in the past as a memory. At moments I feel like time is actually flowing by on a river and yet somehow, I’m not taking in the scenery on the journey. Documenting by photographs or journal entries certainly will help me remember this time, but I really just want to breath, soak, and immerse myself in the present.
I’m trying not to be super hard on myself as pregnancy is beyond tiring physically and emotionally (I nearly cried just typing that ha!) … but I find it hard to not expect myself to know how to deal with it all. How to relish every single moment – feeling good, bad or ugly.
“Cry out for insight, and ask for understanding. Search for them as you would for silver; seek them like hidden treasures. Then you will understand what is means to fear the Lord, and you will gain knowledge of God…” Proverbs 2:3-5
I like how Solomon shared that: 1. you cry out for insight and ask for understanding and THEN 2. you search for them as you would for treasure…
learn: to GAIN (a habit, mannerism, etc.) by experience, exposure to example, or the like: acquire
There is no way you can gain treasure without actually looking for it. Sure, there are ways of inheritance that we can be blessed by … but if you’re like me, when I’m the one who has attained/LEARNED something (and not just ridden off the coat-tails of others), that information/life lesson actually sticks. It’s like that knowledge/revelation is a treasure so attached to you that no one can take it.
It’s easy to just cry out and ask for that understanding … but I need to do more than that. I need to hunt this answer down. Be humble and not worried about having the wrong answer or approach. It says that “…the Lord grants wisdom…” (Proverbs 2:6) and if my heart is seeking that, how I manage my time will be given grace. I will be granted wisdom. I will learn, I will gain – by seeking.
So I encourage you, seek wisdom and understanding like treasure … you will also gain.
pic pix: our little gallivant last weekend to “shoot stuff”, April.2015, Maclean Creek, AB